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| havin good days...some hard stuff happened yesterday. but everything is ok. a little advice to all the people out there that might be at some point in time be lying to their friends..DONT DO IT! if you have something to tell a person, but you don't know if they will react well, just trust that they will. don't try to not put them in pain because that is actually what will happen. they will get hurt, and for awhile, your relationship will not be the same. trust me. i know because that just happened to me yesterday. i got hurt really bad. but do you know what? i'm ok. i'm totally fine! and i love my friend today and yesterday and i did before everything happened. i am SO GLAD..it shows that if you have a really good relationship, you can get through anything...
you know who you are...i LOVE YOU...fo sho | | |
| oh how i LOVE beautiful days! i've gone on 2 "cruises" already today. one w/ kim, and one w/ kt. SO much fun.
i just wanted to share that...heh. | | |
| i am so completely exhusted. i've only worked one day of the weekend..and already i'm done w/ it. lol yesterday was really hard bc nate ( my boss ) and i had to close ourselves. there were anout a billion movies to put away..i had to sweep the whole store...and mop...and clean the lot. yikes. but anys.. i really don't have anything interesting to say bc so far all i've done is work sleep and do a little bit of school. and that's what i'm going to do for the rest of the weekend. lol | | |
| man. this past two weeks have amazed me. i didn't think things were going that well..i don't even remember why i thought that..cause everything is/and was ok. it's weird that sometimes, well all the time for me, feelings show up and take over my life, or my thoughts. ( at least this is how it is for me. ) for me, these feelings always screw SOMEthing up. don't ask me why..cause i don't know. the weirdest part is, that these feelings don't exist. AT ALL. so how can something that doesn't exist make you feel a certain way, or do certain things...?? this is the question i ask. lol.
these past two weeks at work i only had 6 hrs(first week) + 7hrs(this week). i was REALLY dissapointed 1) because i LOVE working at Movie Gallery and 2) because right now i'm really in the save money for college, save money for Washington in June, and spending money however and whenever i want mode. working 19 hrs a week was going perfectly for me...i was getting the right school/work balance. then BOOM all of the sudden..basically NO hrs at all. i didn't know how it was going to work..i was getting really depressed..i don't think that i showed it..i kinda kept it inside me. i didn't really see that there weas a reason to talk about it, cause there was nothing i could do.
what do we fellow Christians do when something is going wrong? we PRAY dag nabit! so that's what i did...over and over and over. i wanted peace w/ my new hrs at work..as far as i knew, these were the hrs that i was going to get. i asked God is i should give up the job that i love so much and look for another job, or if i should just stick it out and see what happened. after i prayed i felt a lot better..
so what happened on tuesday? i was at work saying hi to elizabeth whom i missed cause i hadn't worked w/ her for a week, and rachel calls and says she is sick..elizabeth asked if i wanted to work. i said HECK YES! lol. rachel's shift that i covered, doubled my hrs for the week. when i got home that nite, mom had written me a note that said austin had called..he wanted me to take his hrs this friday and sunday...this made me have 26 hrs this week! oh my cow! i was competely stuned.
i don't know why i am typing this right now. i mean, do i really think that you guys, whoever reads this, really truely wants to hear about my hrs at work? WELL, i guess my point is that sometimes my emotions get ahead of me. they put feelings in my head and get me up jacked up... like i said before..who really knows why the heck they do it. it's prolly one of the stupid little things that satan is trying to do..and most of the time is sucessful w/...
i don't know if this happens to you guys at all..but it's something that i struggle w/ a lot of the time. i used to really suck at just giving in to these feelings. it is really hard not to for me. not letting myself get dragged into a whole bunch of stupid worldly things. i hate it, honestly. but are we not supposed to be transformed by the renewing of our minds? we MUST remember this simple little fact when we go through simple things like work and eveything else out there...
i hope that writting this not only helped me, what maybe someone else too. :)
GOD IS ALWAYS THERE FOR US. HE IS ALWAYS READY TO BE WAITING FOR US WHEN WE NEED HIM..HE IS GREAT AT JUST HOLDING US, AND GIVING US THE LOVE THAT WE NEED. | | |
| man. i ask you.. what is the word "daaaand"?? i meant "daaaaang" | | |
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